bizarre dreams

We were going into court in a very serious manner. I was dressed in a long flowy peach colored dress. and i was being pushed in a shopping cart. I was standing in it against the part where the baby would sit. I wasnt very tall. It was me but it wasnt me. and there was this HUGE fireplace with a ROARING fire in it. it was very old worldly. then in comes these guys all dressed in black with kerchiefs at their necks(think west side story) and sort of smirk and say they are ready but lets just get this cart out of the way. they reach for the cart and I reach for it at the same time in horror. they know exactly what they are doing. I need that cart to stand. They must have won and removed it because then I was sitting on the hearth and pating out embers that were burning my dress. and I was really annoyed by people asking me if I was having hot flashes. then someone yelled REVERSE and I was pulling on a rope that was in my hands, I had forgotten what I was supposed to be doing. SOmeone was rigging up a rope sling for me since I couldnt stand without my cart. I never did get to try it out because Chaos showed up this morning and my dog Ole started barking like crazy(630am!) and I had to hurry to get him outside before he woke the whole house. Wonder how it would have ended. and what it means. something about me putting out small fires fighting to keep from exploding into flames. I feel opressed in this town. thats why I couldnt stand in the dream I think. who knows. could just be my subconscious writing a bizarre movie script.

I want to move.

It is NOT a polygamy compound! its a RELIGIOUS compound!

why can't anyone see that? they do all the things they do there/have done there because they believe it is the way to heaven according to their religion. Polygamy is one of those things. So why is it not a religious compound? why the skew? Why cant we say its their crazy religion instead of its their crazy polygamy when clearly it IS their religion that is the driving force. They believe that the polygamy, the man/child marriage, etc is the way of the lord. their lord. They even said it in an article, You have your religion why cant we have ours? yet still its an issue of polygamy. We have totally missed the boat here folks. its the RELIGION not the polygamy that is the problem.

Again with the polygamy thing

Polygamy is not the axis of evil, people! Come ON! I completely agree that 50 year old men should not have sex with 12 or 13 year old girls. I dont even think 12 or 13 year old boy should be having sex with them(or anyone for that matter). That said, polygamy itself IS NOT BAD. it is not about all things evil. It is about love. more love. If my kid has two moms or 5 moms who care about them why is that a bad thing? Why shouldn't a kid have several caring people in their lives? and why shouldnt adults be able to have several caring loving people in their lives? You can have all the sex you want until you get married. then you only can have it with one person? that makes a lot of sense. you love your mom AND your dad and your brothers and sisters, why cant you love two spouses? There is plenty of love to go around. I just hate when people go off on Polygamy as the center of all things evil. "Well, its all from that lifestyle they live, thats why they have all these problems." Polygamy is defined as marriage in which a spouse of either sex may have more than one mate at the same time. Polygamy does not say have sex with children. It does not say abuse children. Those are all connotations that others have put on it. Polygamy is about love. why is it so wrong to love?

Other People's Children

I really hate when other people's children think they know better than I do. Once there was a little girl who was playing in my yard when my son was small. My son said the word butt in a sentence. Something like sit down on your butt on the swing. and she corrected him that he must say BOTTOM. I said no this is my yard. I am the boss here. this really bugged me all these years. Today a friend of my daughters told her that "you're mom could go to jail for not teaching you." If this was a PS kid I could figure he or she doesnt have a clue about what goes on in HS. but no, this is another HS kid. And it really bugs me.

I have been sick and in the hospital. and today I am sick and tired of being sick and tired.