a forgotten intuitive moment

when I lived in Duluth I had two little kids. I was taking them to the library, The big library downtown. We lived in the western part of the city. My options were to take the freeway, or take the other roads. It was a nice sunny spring/summer day so I took the route less traveled. When we got to a fairly busy intersection there was much slowed traffic, a traffic cop, and an accident ahead. I slowly drove past when it was my turn only to realize the person was sitting in the car that had been hit by a dump truck who failed to stop at a stop sign. The car was seriously messed up. The driver looked annoyed more than anything. She was sitting in the passenger seat with the door open waiting for police to do their thing. That woman was my mother. I pulled into the gas station that is right near there and left the kids locked in the car(which I rarely did, but I couldnt take them with me so what choice did I have?) No one even attempted to stop me from entering the scene. I found my mom and hugged her and asked if she was alright. she was. If I had taken the freeway I would never have even seen there was an accident.

the sense of entitlement and worry that one is working harder than the other is really annoying. No one bothers to think of how much I do. not even today. today they carry on like fools. no one has said the words. I dont care about gifts. I just want to hear the words. I want them to think of someone other than themselves for a change when I sacrifice everything for them. all my energy, all my money, all my time. all for them.

where oh where is my lissy? I miss you lissy!

What am I doing wrong? My daughter attacked me today! I used the N word(no) and she shrieked and attacked me! she has taken to screaming since she learned it from her big sister. She drew blood! I think she is sorry but I totally cut her nails so she wont be doing THAT again. I told her that adults who attack others go to jail. did she want to grow up to go to jail? or did she want to grow up to live a nice life? this child is so strong willed. its HER WAY or the highway. your way is not even considered unless its the same as her way. She dug in my purse(after her brother did the same) and came out with a sucker. when I said you need to ask, she asked. I told her no she wouldnt get it right now because she took it without asking. she just went off. She eats all day long. except dinner. she doesnt eat dinner, probly cus she eats all day. I have tried locks, I have tried alarms. I have tried spankings. Short of following her around every single minute of the day there is no way to keep her from snacking. but geez I gotta pee sometime or answer the phone. or let out a dog. and the minute my eyes are not on her she is in the cabinets searching. I thought the other one was difficult but this one is beyond. I am not allowed to leave for even 5 minutes without her losing it and begging me to stay. crying and carrying on. but when I am here I am shit and she doesnt care. go figure. she is just never happy....unless she is eating. and preferably chocolate. pms already?

how can you be mad at her for writing in the dust on your car when she is so excited that she actually wrote her name? how can you be mad? you just cant. at least I couldnt.

email petitions that go nowhere

I got this email about how you should sign this petition and when it has 5000 signatures send it to xxx. and it went on to say if you dont sign it you are a terrible person and cruel and unfeeling and so on. now nowhere did it say what this petition is petitioning. so why should I feel guilty for not signing and passing on to everyone I know? Its crap.

In the paper today, it says a woman was arrested for prostitution for having sex in exchange for gas. I say thats not prostitution its BARTERING! she used what she had to get what she wanted. why is that so wrong? if we have a piece of gold we can go ahead and exchange that for something else we want. but if we give of ourselves THEN the shit hits the fan. something is seriously wrong in this country.

happy 4th of july

happy independence day. happy birthday america. (a little early because I will be away from computers on the 4th)