crazy kids

maia just came in with her barbie toilet and flapped the lid up and down. as she did this she was saying "HI! I'm trever toilie!"

well now that the basement flooded I am having an even harder time figuring out where to get the money to adopt. ARGGHHH. Ethan has been pretty good the last couple days. he got to see his sister in action having a little snit like he does and I told him thats how he looks and it isnt pretty and it isnt pleasant and maybe he could learn from her mistakes. Maia is VERY cranky today and I am trying to get her to nap but she wants nothing to do with it. typical maia. We walked up town to the kids carnival yesterday. it was fun for the kids. hurt my toe a lot but I made it. and now the snow is falling falling falling. I so do not want any more snow. I am ready to see SPRING!! chrysta is studying Helen Keller and has to be deaf and blind for an hour. She cant get through ten minutes. keeping chrysta quiet is not an easy thing. i might have to break out the duct tape to keep her quiet!

I made the right decision

I did. I know I did. yet somehow other people who cant see past the nose on their face seem to think that a dog should be spared no matter the circumstances. Even if it means a human is harmed. One person on freecyle attacked me and told me I am fucking nuts and mentally ill and my children will suffer through their life with me. told me I should never kill a dog. what the hell? I am SAVING MY CHILDRENS LIVES! not to mention the lives of other people's children! I was willing to make the hard choices and follow through, in the interest of safety. No one who wrote me to ask about why I would put him down wanted to take him home and risk THEIR family, but I should risk mine and those around me? get the fuck off my back if you are not walkin in my shoes. I loved that dog so much I did what was best for him and everyone else, instead of keeping him alive for my own selfish need to have him near. I said he was to be humanely euthanized and I believe he was. he was with me, who loved him. he died in my lap. how much more humane can you get. I was so honored to be part of his pack. he was willing to defend me to the very end. I felt his love as he growled at the vet, he felt the need to protect me. as he did all that he loved. As much as I felt his love, I knew it was dysfunctional love. I did the right thing. Some people need to get a life and not put their nose where it doesnt belong.

Big Ole

Today Big Ole will go to Doggy Heaven and he will run free and never be tied again. He will be happy and calm and know how much he is loved. He will play hide and seek until his heart is content. and here on earth there will be many tears, as there have been already, and he will be very missed by his family who will never forget him and never stop loving him. I have been crying all day. Appointment time is 2:15. This is so hard, he is so young. It was easier with Griffin knowing he was sick and in pain. Ole is just thinking its any old day and when can he go hunting again. He so loved to hunt. I just so wish there was another option. ANY option. but there just isnt. I love you big Ole. I will miss you every day forever.

I think the pope is on crack

or at the very least alzheimers is kicking in. He went to Africa to talk about AIDS and said that condoms wont help the AIDS epidemic there. no it wontbe the end of it but it sure could help in reducing numbers of people gettihing HIV thus reducing the numbers that die of it further reducing the number of children orphaned. so yeah a few condoms could really change things, but NOOOOOO the pope goes over there and says condoms wont help. what planet is he on?

a bad day

I fell twice today. banner day. Ethan flushed one of the snails down the toilet. he let all the baby guppies out of the baby tank and the big fish ate them. I hurt my arm on the first fall and my foot on the other. My parents came today and brought us a surprise. Actually I knew it was coming so it wasnt a surprise to me. but they brought us a NEW TV! actually its their OLD tv but it works and our OLD tv doesnt. and its much bigger than our old one. except Cody hasnt hooked it all up yet and since I have to crutch its hard to get down there to do it myself.


Tomorrow is girl scout cookie money turn in. we still have cookies to deliver. nothing like cutting it to the very wire!

Chaos was here today. was here all night. they came for him around 12:30 or so and he DIDNT WANT TO GO! what does THAT say? he would rather sleep on our porch than go home with them. One of the kids had to come up and get him. he is such a nice dog. he is obviously hungry he is way too thin. I fed him and he gobbled up every bite. For such a nice boy I wish someone could keep him and not let him run all over the state. I wish we could keep him. I would talk to the family and ask if we could keep him IF our dogs didnt go absolutely BONKERS every time he gets near. methinks three male dogs in one household might be a bit too many!! That is part of his problem, he isnt neutered. he is so patient as Ole barks in his face. he just yawns and turns his head almost wincing as if to say gosh that hurts my ears but I am not at all upset by it. I hope he doesnt get hit by a car one of these days.

Ethan is trying today. it shows.